Wow! I don't think that we could have asked for a better weekend. It went up to 52 degrees on Saturday and Sunday, and with daylight savings time starting today, the sun was out until somewhere around 7:30, I think. It really gave me spring fever, and it was so welcome after all that cold that we endured.
DH wore his winter coat and hat outside; I think that he's more sensitive to the cold than I am, and that's saying a lot. DD, on the other hand, has an internal furnace that puts us both to shame. DD and I just wore heavy sweaters and felt fine in the sunshine, swinging on the porch swing and singing Old MacDonald.
I even took DD to the park today -- now that was wishful thinking. I guess that I thought that since the four inches of ice on our driveway had melted away, there would be a nice area to play in. Wrong-o. There was still a few inches of snow on the playground. DD wanted to walk around, but I wouldn't let her do it. I didn't even think to bring along a pair of boots, so infected with spring fever was I. The poor thing was very, very disappointed.
DH joined us as we were walking back toward home from the park. We did get to go for a little walk around town. I think DH is kind of angry with me, or at least he seemed to be. I didn't even bring up having another baby (even though I do talk about it frequently), but DH started talking about how he is never going to have time to himself again. I was kind of confused at first, because I thought that he was talking about being pulled away from whatever he was working on to take a walk. But it was deeper than that.
This always seems to happen. The more I tip toward just going for it, the more DH seems to get upset about it. I even went so far as to leave a message for my RE (reproductive endocrinologist) on Friday to ask him if there is any protocol I could follow for an FET (frozen embryo transfer) that would allow me to preserve my breast feeding relationship with DD.
DH does raise a myriad of good points. One of the many arguments that he raises is that I don't even have DD's room set up for her, but I don't think it's a crisis, since we are still breast feeding and co-sleeping. The place that will be her room is the place where I'm sitting right now, typing. And it is completely trashed -- it is filled with boxes of stuff and miscellaneous things that I just don't know what I will do with when I have to move them out. But move them out I will. When we are ready, I am going to have to take some time off of work to just do it. I want to paint, wallpaper, and carpet in here. And I will have to move my "office" somewhere else. If we have two children, then DH will lose his office, and I think we will have to share the guest room downstairs (sorry guests, you will be relegated to the couch because we don't have any extra rooms).
I guess I am just more laid back about all this stuff. DD doesn't need a room now. There is no new baby, and if there were, that child wouldn't need a room right away either. The hard part is just getting to a place where I don't feel like DH will secretly hate me forever for going forward. He says he won't, but I need to really know that is true in my heart. I love him very, very much. I dated every jerk in the metropolitan area (or so it seems) before I found him. And I never, ever want to let go. He is so perfect. For me, and for DD.